The Unknown.

In April of 2010, I found a lump in my right breast. It was large, and near the surface, and had appeared rapidly. Just two weeks before this, I'd had my annual with my OBGYN, and that lump was not there. It was scary, and I had no idea what it was. The next day I was in the Dr.'s office being scheduled for an ultrasound. 

The ultrasound showed a cyst. It was a large cyst, but just a cyst, thankfully. I had it aspirated and then continued on my way. Turns out, my body was just getting started in the cyst department. Since that time, I've had new cysts show up every 4-6 months. I was religious about getting checked, and each time they'd tell me it was a cyst, and I'd get it/them aspirated (it was almost always more than one cyst). They always came in large (the first one I had was 10cm, and subsequent cysts were between 4 and 8cm), and every time it was nerve racking. 

Fast Forward to July 2016. I had another cyst, in my right breast. This time I had a full diagnostic mammogram because I was 41 and my Dr. wanted a baseline. I also had an ultrasound. Both showed it was another cyst. It wasn't as large as the others, and the decision was made to not aspirate. 

Then, in March 2017, a large cyst appeared in my left breast. I went in for the usual screening and aspiration. I asked if we could have the cyst in my right breast aspirated since I would be on the table anyway. So, I was scheduled for an ultrasound and aspiration on both breasts. 

April 21, 2017 I arrived for my appointment. Going in, and I can't explain this, I just knew something was up. That this time wasn't going to be the usual drill. I got onto the table for my ultrasound and the left breast was a cyst, larger, the usual. Then the ultrasound wand was put on my right breast and there it was. Not a cyst. I knew immediately it was not the usual cyst. It showed up kind of gray with some lumps on the bottom side of it, but more defined on the top part. 

Here come lots of questions. How do you feel, is there pain in the area, how long has it been there (um, well, it was a cyst back in July... so, since then?), have you noticed any other changes in your breast? On and on. Then the Dr. appears. Biopsy. 

They prep me for aspiration on the left side, and biopsy on the right side. It happened quickly and the next thing I know they are shooting the biopsy 'gun' so that I know the sound so I will not move when they are doing the actual procedure. Ultrasound on, and OMG, the number of blood vessels in the area... it seemed like a lot. 

They try and comfort me. Most masses are nothing. Blah, blah, blah... but I know. I just know. But, of course, I don't really know. I won't know for sure for another 2-3 business days, and the biopsy was on a Friday. 

So... I wait. Go on with things, knowing. Knowing everything is most likely about to change, but until I hear the words, I'm okay.

A few weeks before my appointment, I was on a lovely hike in Pinnacles National Forest.

A few weeks before my appointment, I was on a lovely hike in Pinnacles National Forest.